A series of Unfortunate Events!

This happened a couple of days back. Its true, the probability of encountering a situation that you fear the most is very high. I had to learn it the hard way.
It was the last week of November and I was in a VERY (oh yes, very in caps) happy mood! Wanna ask me why? I was all geared up to go for the Cry Freedom Concert that was to be held in Counter Culture. My happiness could not be explained in words. It was not because I've not gone for any concert (I definitely have). But because it was going to be a 10-hour long show and around 11 artists would be playing, and mostly because I'd get to see Avial (oh yes, I am very much into their music!).
So on the morning of 24th, as happy as I can be, I get out, all dressed up for the show. I do not know any direct buses to the venue, so I decide to take an auto-rickshaw to the place from where I will get one. As soon as I get in, I call my friend (who apparently stays very close to the venue) and ask her for directions. While she is explaining everything to me with all her dedication, I reach the first signal that goes red. Everything happened all of a sudden. In the span of 2 minutes, I end up all bugged and also Rs.100 poorer. Ask me how? Oh well, a group of eunuchs surround me and start pestering me for money.
Now, for anyone who knows me, I am mortally scared of these people. I really dont know why, but I am! And everytime I see such a person, I usually pretend to be sleeping or somehow get away from the place. But unluckily, that day was totally different. Not only could I not act like I was sleeping, I could NOT get away either. The signal obviously wouldn't turn green for another 1-2 min. They started asking for money in their usual ways. I, as any person would act, said I did not have enough money with me. They did not listen and asked me to open my purse, which  had to, due to plain fear (don't ask me of what!). The sight of two 100 rupee notes was enough for them to jump on me all angry!! I was so scared that I was confused what to do! Luckily I saw the auto-rickshaw guy looking at me and an idea popped in my head. I pleaded to the group to let me go because I needed the 100rupees to give to the rickshaw-wallah. They gave me a very dirty glare and demanded for the other 100 rupee note, which I hesitantly gave!

And then the signal turns green! How convenient! Now, 100 rupees poorer and still a long way to go, I told the rickshaw-wallah to continue on. He dropped me at the bus-stop and told me there was nothing I could do. Ha! Like I didn't know that! I got into the bus which would take me to the venue. I again got busy on the phone. My friend told me where to get down and I did as she said. I got down and took another rickshaw as per her instructions.
Oh wait! This doesnt end there. Now, in the new rickshaw, I read oout the directions to the auto driver and he tells me that we can ask and go around to get to the place. I agree to it and then he asks directions at the next signal. I tell  them the place and the guy points out how to reach there. The rickshaw guy sets out to get there. We go as per the instructions, but don't seem to be getting anywhere. Rather, we end coming back to where we started from! I got all irritated and started scolding the rickshaw-wallah! Poor fellow begs and says sorry and asks directions again. Turns out the guy who gave directions in the first place gave the wrong ones!

Now with the new found instructions, we set out again, into a place that seems like a far off village. I get doubtful of the whole area as my friend had described the place as an industrial area. But then the addresses on the shops seem to be telling us that we are on the right track! Everything was confusing. Finally we again found ourselves going nowhere and had to stop again to ask for directions! This time when I talked to a shop-keeper to ask him for the directions, I showed him the slip of paper in which I had written down the address. He looks at me, the rickshaw-wallah and laughs!

Obviously I got very irritated! Here I am money gone, all lost, time ticking, and all this guy was doing was laugh?? He looks at me and says that I had pronounced the place wrong! I wanted to slap myself and cut myself into a 1000 pieces! Of course, that made sense! He explained to us how we had all come the wrong way and how the place was actually nearby from where I took the rickshaw in the first place. I felt all dejected and depressed. The rickshaw-wallah was very sweet to me. He consoled me telling I can get out and not take the auto from now. He would help me in getting a bus. I was grateful. But then I decided to go in the rickshaw till the place. The shop-keeper showed us the exact directions to the place, and you wont believe it, we reached the place in no time!!

The rickshaw-wallah did not charge me extra, rather he took less from me than what the meter had shown! He said sorry a couple of times and told me to forget what happened and have fun. And what do you know, I did!!! 

It was one of the most amazing times I've had! Thanks to my friend Nikhil John!! It was drizzling throughout the concert, giving the whole event a lovely feel! I don't think I've done that much head-banging ever in my life!! 9.5 hours of ultimate enjoyment is what I had! :)

My real take on LIFE

By now I've realized that there is this nature of mine, I'm never satisfied with what I have. I always want more. In school, I always felt that my life was not interesting enough. Then came college. Even after getting admit into a good college, I felt that I could have done better, could have gotten into a better college. Moreover, I felt that I was forced into the specialization I had chosen for college. And then during the course of 4 years of engineering that I had to complete, I lived with the feeling that I could have done better at my academics if it were not for a few incidents that happened then. Wait, this doesn't end there. You must be wondering what a jackass this girl is! Well then, give me the honor of making you feel worse :)

OK so if the academics in college weren't enough, after college also, I did NOT seize to feel "sad" for myself. As per my plan, I was supposed to write GRE and go abroad for my higher studies. That did NOT happen! No surprises there, right? Now wouldn't you think that would make me even more pessimistic? You are right! It was like "I do not have luck" was suddenly my favorite line. Well, I did write GRE. And it was not because i did NOT get any admit, I did. But the tuition was not something that I could actually afford.

Anyway, that phase passed on. I decided to work for a year and see what's in store for me. Any guesses what would've happened? No points for guessing though! :P As expected, I found work a torture, was not satisfied and eventually ended up quitting my job to do higher studies. I was studying for an exam and then again landed up with a job i thought i liked. So, I decided to take it up, even though it required me to re-locate to another place and start over.

Now, let's see how many more phases of dissatisfaction I'll have to go through, to finally appreciate life for all the good things it has given me!!

The Road to Life

Two roads lay diverged in front of me
Both stretched out forever, as far as I can see
The one on left all shady and quiet,
While the one on right not travelled yet.
Mind plays tricks on you, not letting you choose
And others are of no help, they are not in your shoes.
Its upto you to find out, think and decide;

Else, for sure, life's gonna take you for a ride.
Make the choice, stick to it, reach the end;
Dont bother if on the road you find a sharp bend.
I chose the road that I saw fit then
And walked and walked, maybe a mile ten.
Trees grew in, shrubs bit me, but I moved on,
Looked back, no one seemed with me, all gone
Yet, I had to go on, my fate awaited me.
What's in store for me, I wanted to see.
They say the destination does not matter
And life's a mixed emotional platter.
Its the journey that determines all,
And I'm glad mine didn't bring me to my fall.

Lonesome

Sitting here all alone, on my lovely bed

Trying to write, but with a heavy head,
Ideas come flowing in, can't pen my thoughts
All that's there on paper are a few ink blots.

My heart says, think back, analyze this;
What is that is lacking, what do you miss?
Slowly but clearly it all comes to me,
As best as ever, now I can very much see.

Solitude in midst of crowds, that's what I feel;
No matter what, nothing changes this, its real.
Someone somewhere is made for me,
Can't wait for the day when him I'll meet.

Karma's a bitch!

Knowingly or unknowingly, life teaches us this - 

The color on your pants is your own piss!

Blame it on the world to screw up your day,

But not on yourself for going here and there astray.

Stinging arrows thump the mithril-shielded heart,

When the world gives you the look of a spare part,

When you have no palisades from the savage ride,

And no place to seek refuge, nowhere to hide.

You become a star, walk the walk and talk the talk;

But to them, you’re still a laughing stock.

You hold out and reach the sky, the world at your feet,

Oh but you don’t know, they spy on you discreet

Wishing that they stood by in times of need,

Wishing that they had paid you more heed,

Live they have to, with the tormenting itch.

Don’t worry my friend, karma’s a bitch!

प्यार के दो लफ्ज़

प्यार के दो लफ्ज़ कहोगे तुम मुझसे अगर,

इज़हार करना मुझसे, रुकना न मगर;

आन्धियाँ, तूफ़ान, सैलाब पार कर गए जब,

डरना क्या किसी से, हो गए है एक जब |

रात कटती है निंदिया बिना

जब एक पल बीतती है तुम्हारे बिना;

सुबह हो दोपहर हो या शाम हो,

बस तेरे ही साथ हमेशा हो |

चंद्रमा की चांदनी और सूरज की किरने जैसी,

फूलों की खुशबू और चिड़ियों की चेहेक जैसी,

प्यार तेरा मानो जैसे कोई शराब हो,

जितनी पीयूँ उतनी ही और प्यास हो  |

Yesterday's Love

I've been thinking about you..

What I'd do without you..

All the laughs you've shared with me..

All the days of serendipity..

My eyes are clouded by the mist of yesterday..

The sweet little ways in which you kiss my sorrow away..

Love is what you've shown me day in and day out..

Hope is what I have of you and me throughout..

And I wish that you'd stay here.. forever and ever..

Coz without you i'm broken.. 

The Tale of a Misfortuned Soul

Some are born humble and nurturing,

Some live a humbug, some very infecting,

But then there are some that stand apart

Forced to withhold themselves, be strong at heart.

They carry the weight of the world on their shoulders

This might seem thick, but well, they do walk on smolders

Life’s a bitch as they would put it, or even many at that.

But no complaints, only hopes of not being poked at.

Tortured, driven to the point of obliteration, she fails;

Tormented by pain, she lets go of the burden that her duty entails.

And when she is flying, free of all binding crutches,

No one, not even a single soul her agony touches.

This is to you, my friend, I love you :)

Everyday it haunts me in my dreams,
Wish it goes away, want no more of these screams.
No today, no tomorrow, only the horrors of the past,
What a life it is, wonder how long this is gonna last.

Miraculous are the ways of the wondrous world
Just when all hope is lost and clear paths seem swirled,
Unexpected, though it may be, stretched out I see,
A helping hand, a savior, someone whom I could never foresee.

Mighty killer it is, prejudice, if with you it may lie,
Makes a friend a foe, for no reason why.
When one day the blindfold goes, and you feel chagrin
You then realise oh what a fool you've been.

A thousand apologies seem worthless, a heartful of remorse vain,
For this sweet soul is the reason I am keeping sane.
I am sorry, oh lovely friend, I was blind.
For I did not see the goodness in you, oh so kind.

If there was a way to turn back time,
I would surely erase my dastardly crime.
You I would keep close to my heart, oh friend,
Forever, for always, till my life's end.