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Like a lost soul wandering about
Had given up, as would have hope
But something did change me, made me enervated

What could it be, could it be me? Yea right!

Maybe the need, maybe anger
No, that's not it, nowhere near it
What made me want to do what I've wanted to
Can only be the singular feeling of not being wanted

Fill your thoughts with all but the thought
Oldest trick, isn't that what they say?
I admit, I too have fallen prey
As long as it works, what's the harm anyway?

They say

They say, there are miles to go before I sleep
But what am I to do, I'm sucked in so deep.
In thoughts I wander off, now and then
Rarely in senses, don't even know when.

They say it happens to you very rare
It hits you like the sun's glare
Got no clue what's making me delirious
So unworldly, sometimes even hideous.

Stars seem brighter, days seem longer
And the nights seem worse, spent in his hunger.
A second away seems like forever
But times spent together last never.

They say love makes you blind and stupid
You seize to remain how you were, intrepid.
Things you do don't make sense or have reason
But all that you do is for making it through another season.

They say all's fair in love and war
Wouldn't bad things leave a scar?
In the name of love if you risk your integrity
Won't you lose love, will you even be given pity?

Doing wrong is as easily done as thought about
Is it that very easy to admit it and act out?
Realizing one's mistake is just the beginning of it all
It is the courage that matters to tell it and face the squall.